I thought I'd write a little update about my day where I didn't feel like doing anything.
I let myself do nothing for a little while, like I said. It wasn't for very long though before we had to leave to feed Panama his dinner and run some other errands while he ate.
When we got home, I had entirely shaken off my do-nothing mood. We ended up working on a project this evening, and I feel pretty satisfied with what we got done.
We've had an ongoing goal to clean up the house, starting with the kitchen. I'd had a goal at the beginning of the year to clean up and organize my house so that my doll spaces were easier to utilize, and we'd been making good progress before Panama got sick. Since then, everything has gotten a whole lot messier, because for five straight months we basically had zero time (or motivation) to clean or organize. We were spending so much time keeping Panama alive, that what time we had left had to be spent keeping ourselves alive (working so we could pay bills, and enjoying the occasional down time so we didn't go completely crazy).
I've been planning ways to reorganize the kitchen, and had bought a couple of pantry organizers a few weeks ago, but we hadn't yet had a chance to set them up. We finally set one of them up last night, and the other one tonight. As part of that, we cleaned up that section of the kitchen a little, and while there's still a lot of work left to be done, I'm quite pleased with what we accomplished tonight - especially given my do-nothing mood earlier this afternoon.
I have a few other things I could work on this evening, but I no longer feel reluctant to do so. That's the secret of motivation, and why procrastination is such a vicious cycle: When you get things done, it actually helps to motivate you to get more done, so when you're not doing things, you're missing out on that energy that can help you feed into the next thing, and the next, and the next.
I should probably write a post about that eventually.
For right now, though, I'm going to go do some things before it gets too late and my motivation peters out for the night!